Hello friends and family, I hope
this beautiful beginning of winter has been treating everyone well. For us, the
cold weather is hardly even noticed between all of our excitement for the
journey it has brought with it. Jason and I just can’t seem to sit still.. I
think we both like change and adventures a bit too much! So, we are ready to
share our next one with you.. the biggest yet.. our journey to have children!
Jason and I
knew each other was “the one” since the very first day, and we began talking
about our future kids just a few months into our relationship. We’re lucky
enough to have a beautiful marriage that we’ve never doubted, even through the
rough times. We have also never doubted that we want kids. (Hopefully lots ;)
As many of you know, there has been a big challenge to that dream: we found out
that it would take a miracle for us to have children naturally due to the
shrapnel throughout Jason’s body. We spent a long time wrestling with that
reality, and feeling confused about why God was adding to our already up-hill
battle of daily life. As time has gone on, there are some days that are worse
than others, of course, but we have grown new hope. If the Lord ever says,
“wait,” it is for a reason. We believe that He told us to wait for our dream
because He knew all the incredible people we would meet through this. He knew it would give us time to prepare, and
time to love one another without distraction.
THANK YOU to Conceptions Reproductive Associates, Braun Pharmaceuticals, & the Compassionate Corps Program |
We are thankful to announce that we
are beginning our IVF journey because of God’s miraculous direction. The clinic
we go to has been wonderful to us since day one. They had no hesitation in
accepting the VA’s storage pay when the other clinics refused. Our nurse has
worked extremely hard to find ways to make our dream possible. She found a
program that pays for expensive IVF medications for Purple Heart recipients.
Then, she and the staff donated an additional few thousand dollars worth of
medicines on top of that from women who had extra after their rounds. As if that
weren’t enough, they reached out to Braun Pharmaceuticals in hopes of helping
us even more. Sure enough, we received a personal phone call from the president
of the company offering to pay one of our copays, and he personally donated
another expensive med. All he asked for in return is a phone call back when our
dreams come true so he can know he did something good in the world. If only he
knew how good was he did was. If only everyone who has been there for us could
know what it means to us.
Church date! |
In addition to financial blessings,
PBS also filmed a Newshour segment on our story to urge the VA to pay for IVF
coverage for service members with combat-related reproductive injuries. That
should be airing some time this week!
Right when our hearts were already about to burst from blessings, a
sweet young lady reached out to us and chose our story to cover for her college
photography class. She is photographing our IVF journey, which will mean that
when the time comes, we will have priceless photos of every step it took to
have our baby.
My hubby has been the world’s
greatest teammate every step of the way. When he heard the news about us not
being able to have children naturally, he promised me we would find a way. And
I just know that when I am a (hopefully less than)something to get what we have prayed for is worth telling those we
care about.
300 lb crazy pregnant lady, he will be the only
one who can put up with my ugly crying. If our children are even half of the
quality person that he is, all of this emotional process will be worth it.
While we are excited to begin this, we know that a million things can go wrong.
The process could be paused any minute, it could possibly not work, and it
could not work again. However, we feel that just the hope of beginning a family
is worth celebrating. Just being able to say we are doing something to get what we have prayed for is worth telling those
we care about.
We won’t be posting updates most
likely throughout this, because it could take 3+ months or 3+ years. It is
already emotional enough between just the two of us, so I can’t imagine how
difficult it would be to share any complications or unfortunate news. We’ve
noticed that some people react with the same joy and gratefulness we have, and
we cling to that. Those are the people we want to surround ourselves with. It
means so much that so many of you are able to rejoice with us long before
anything has even happened. There are others who doubt us, think we are too
young, or just are not thrilled for us. We will respect that, but we won’t
invest our time in it. We want our family, even as small as it is now, to be around
individuals who believe in dreaming and keeping faith.
Some of our best support <3 |
So far, this journey has brought me
closer to my husband and to the Lord. I’ve been forced to think about my
heart’s priorities, and I’ve been challenged to become the daughter of God I
ought to be. I’ve had to trust God’s plan even more than I already did. Jason
and I have prayed together, cried together, and we are so looking forward to
the joy we will have together when we see our baby’s face one day! Please keep
us in your prayers as we enter into this roller coaster of IVF. You are in our
thoughts and prayers daily.
"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks,
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18